Everything inside of me feels so heavy. My heart truly aches and it seems to beat slow now. Whenever I find myself thinkin bout it, my eyes start to water and my throat gets tight as fuck. I always hold it all in though, but I just sit there quietly in order to do so..so lately people been telling me I’m not quite the same. I don’t care though. I don’t feel like doing anything or seeing anyone, nothin. Other people don’t interest me. I only desire your company. I can’t sleep at night because my thoughts keep my layin there awake. Thoughts of how its all my fault and I can only blame myself for doing whatever it is we were doing the wrong way. I torture myself by going over everything that was good in my head and picking myself apart in attempts to figure out whats wrong with me. Whats so wrong with me that you couldn’t stand to stay? What did I do? I’m officially heartbroken.